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what a day.. woke up at around 7. had to go to the station to cancel ma’s ticket and book another one… had to go to the MCO. stood in line for an hour… in the wrong queue!!!!! man they should put up bigger signboards. then got a msg that i had to be there at the sonex towers office at 10:30. it was already 9:30. waited in the “correct” queue for another 45 mins… (there was no one behind the counter)… decided it was gettn too late….. rushed to sonex towers. was late by 10 mins…. late on the first day!!! they dint seem to bother.

it so happens that our  tech guide is girl shy….. sheesh….. its absurd. so were assigned to this girl who seemed not more than a coupla yrs older than us. she repeated the same things we knew already. and finally we were given a comp to sit n get familiar with the existing system…

kinda spent the whole day doing that. was good in a way… found some glitches here n there. still dont know exactly which module is yet to be done.

am leaving for karunya tomorrow. will be returnin to chennai on friday. will have to get straight down to work right after that. yet to fix up the broadband thingie.

need to do some last minute shopping….

and my laptop is lying dead without an os  . waiting for that guy to come with the cd…. still havent used it .

am in chennai. have to go back to karunya on tuesday… no prep whatsoever. dunno y i m even trying. anyway. yet to visit the pg place. have to go to TCS tomorrow… y cant everythin happen peacefully. need to look for the lap…. somethin i dont mind doing.

very very scared bout starting.

Finally am home after 4 long months. Sadly am leaving for chennai tomorrow…

Updates….. met up with most church people… had loads of fun at youth cell and the navy mela… Missed everyone so much.. yet to meet mahima and anugrah.

have decided to give the dell interview a shot…. nothin to lose right…. or is there??

There is so much that has happened here while i was in colg…. it seems the church camp was awesome, which i missed. the youth outreach, again which i missed…. hopefully wont miss out on christmas. My comp at home is not workin. i am using mona n lisa’s right now. we got a new mp3 player finally……

weird things happenin regardin my proj.. cant be discussed here…

oooohh….. one last thing…. dad is actually contemplating buying  me a lap…. cool eh???

think the next update will only be from chennai….

I just cant seem to accept the fact that its finally over… just one more exam and i dont have much left to do with colg except my project reviews, farewell(if possible) and of course the graduation.

I know this is like my “nth” post on this topic… this will be the last… hopefully

My mind refuses to believe that there is not gonna be anymore “regular colg” days or even hostel days for that matter. I just dont seem to want to come to terms with it…. I need a jerk, a push, a wake up signal…. and its taking too long… a bit too long.

I am living in the oblivion of ignorance.

Gonna miss hostel sooooooo much. The nightout movie sessions, the regular washin clothes routine(u know what i mean by regular ), the weekend skin n hair pampering, endless chats bout practically nothin useful….ok at times useful … at times, last minute nail biting finish kinda studies, midnight junk food indulgence, the tripping business(flav,chinnu and maria being my favs… its coz they react so well ), the hesitant confiding and sharing at the lowest points, getting rid of all the frustration( whatever or whoever be the cause) by pouring it out to someone close.. not worryin bout how they will react…. there is so much…. and its gonna come to an end……

I still cant….. someone wake me up and knock some sense into my head pls…..

ps: the above is a result of me starting to pack today

WHY do we gossip when we know how much harm it does??? Yes this question holds for all those million + things we do knowing how incorrect they r.

But “gossip” in particular is somethin i am trying to rid myself these days…. but invariably it catches up to me… mayb not in the form of me doin it…. maybe the other way round.

Sometimes i find myself in a situation and i dont know how landed myself there…

Gossip is so irresistable i know… we find ourselves doing it without even realising it… and sometimes… we know it… but just choose to give it fancy names and continue doing it.

But what we dont realise, is the extent to which it hampers our thinking, our feelings for someone, our attitude towards someone, our even our behaviour. It is entirely psychological, so dont go shaking your head with the ” nah it doesnt affect me” attitude. We dont know it… but it happens…

So many times i have made a mistake in judging people too soon… and that too based not on first hand experience but on some “slimy” gossip.

Not only does it effect the participants…. but also a mere bystander, a passive listener becomes prey to it.

So next time, lets just watch what we say and what we hear…

was very sceptic bout how the day was gonna be…. but had a good time at the end. bout 15 days left in this place and sadly it has to be spent studying whther i like it or not.

Is it the usual or am i “not studying” a lil more this sem(man, what a sentence structure)????

dad’s booked my tickets. am finally going home after one whole semester… first time this long my entire colg life…. its a drastic change from going home twice a month in second yr….
travellin with bency n jenny half way.

i reallly need to start studying…. havent packed either….

have four days left for my exams to start….

prep->zero, planning->nil, confidence->sub zero,
motivation->negative…..

i should start studyin…. mayb i should pack first and then start.
oh ya my pracs were pretty good…. (am not considering the viva )

Just finished one of the pracs- hardware had one of the worst viva ever… Was snubbed and embarrassed…. yes again… Atleast i got my output… then again.. who dint??
whats with lady staff and being rude to girls….

have my j2ee pracs tomorrow… isnt it amazing how we can clear a lab exam without even knowing what the whole subject is about… sad …