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Heard bout it so much. Felt bad that was not there to witness a concert in the real sense in karunya. So here’s a video i managed to find on youtube. Quality is bad. But jus enough to give a glimpse of what it was like. Karunya???

Long time. Was contemplating starting another blog. Dropped the idea for the moment. So updates on the karunya trip:

• Worst review EVER
• Best 2 days in hostel that i can think of!

Thanks angel, bency, donk, priya had an awesome time…  

Too lil time but tried my best to make the most of it. Dint manage to meet everyone i wanted to meet. Am sorry. But the memory of the past 2 days will stay for quite some time. Atleast till the next visit.

Do I know myself at all? Have i ever made an attempt to do that? Have I made any progress if i have? Why cant I just carry on living without having to “introspect” my actions? Aint ignorance bliss??? Does it really take that much of effort to get to know urself? I mean how hard can it be right? Its U? Who else would know U if not U?? Whats wrong with me? Am I the only one who knows nothing (or not enough) about one’s self or thinks that way?? Is it wrong to not want to know yourself? How on earth can  I be a better person if I dont know myself? Do i want to be a better person? Of course i do! Am i willing to pay the price for that? Am I?

Any answers?

Been a long time since i wrote one of these. So whats been happening with me past coupla weeks.

Went to hyderabad last week. An experience i will never forget. Spent time with my grandmother.
Project wise, things are finally taking shape. Feel like it is “do”able. Havent done much work lately but the reviews have been going on pretty well.

Yesterday was weird. Went out with chinnu. And it so happened that we were wearing RED T shirts and neither of us thought about the valentine’s day hype. We looked pretty conspicuous on the roads.

Its actually been close to 3 months since the project started. ANd am so glad its going to end soon. Am sooooo looking forward to the time to follow.

State of mind right now – “troubled”

Couldnt find the video on youtube. Its by the lead singer of CREED-Scott Stapp. The song is called RELEARN LOVE. Really love it.

On a dark and lonely highway
I need the Son to raise my head
I come before you, I am naked
The man I am now must be shed
I’ve weathered storms and I am broken
My beaten heart is in your hands
What I really need is shelter and a chance

To relearn love
Teach me all over
All over
To relearn love
Show me again
So I can relearn love

The comfort of Your arms around me
Your tender hands caress my head
I lay beside You, I’m not worthy
This jaded man’s not who I am
I’ve touched the flame and I’ve been burnt
All I need is a second chance
Give me eyes of a child
And teach this man

To relearn love
Teach me all over
All over
To relearn love
Show me again
So I can relearn love

I was selfish, but You still loved me
You gave the greatest gift of all and it set me free
When time means nothing, and your world is standing still
Listen world, He’s calling: if you feel me drop and kneel
Can you feel it?
Just remember, oh oh remember
To relearn love

To relearn love
Show me again
To relearn love (Relearn my love)
Teach me all over
All over, to relearn love (Show me, show me)
Show me again (To relearn my love)
To relearn love (Teach me now, now)
Teach me all over, all over (Relearn my love)
To relearn love (To relearn, relearn my love)
Show me again

So I can relearn love

Disclaimer:

The objective of this post is not to depress anyone. Just to get some thinking done. And might I add that I am referring to the “death in the body”.

The reality and the magnanimity of its occurance is often ignored rather, most often , the extra thought process required to measure it, is not done unless the course of events forcibly bring us to a position where we have no other option but to “face it”. Face it in totality, Face it, unprepared. Face it, with fear/grief/anger.

But why are we unprepared? We know it HAS to happen. We know it WILL happen. But we somehow are never equiped enough to handle it.

The events of the past week have brought me closer to the truth as to how miniscule the amount of time we spend here on earth is, as compared to eternity. All this is just temporary. If we begin to base our lives on this reality that we are but here for a second of our lives, then am sure our entire approach towards life will transform. The things that seem to mean the world to us right now will begin to seem far from necessary. What to wear, eat, how much money we have! Everything will begin to seem meaningless. All that matters, is if I “know” my saviour, and if i place Him above everythin else. The question is do i? do u? Something to really think about.

The video for the josh groban song was not available. But this one is MUCH better. Its my current favourite, just like the rest of u ( i mean the 3 of u who i know).

Have doubts about the IQ of an average american. Heres something that should clarify.. 

By far the funniest video i have come across.

Truth —- hurts?? Hilarious!!!

U know the best way to test the niceness/goodness of a person…..

Put him in a crowded bus with very lil standing room and the language being alien. It can amaze you how this experience can make the sanest person lose his/her nerve and normal sense of thinking.  

Y am i talking about this when i have lots of other things on my mind. Frankly speaking, i really have no clue. Its just somethin i was thinking about on the way to cathedral road. This time, sitting (for a change). Its such a wide variety of people you can see. And its fun to jus sit and observe them. Is it wrong to do that? I do it just to make a long boring journey a lil bit better for myself.

News Flash! Just found out that I make better coffee with milk powder than with normal milk. Not possible u say… I know!!! But its true, I have out done myself, yet again!