InSidE oUt

Reasoning sometimes leads us away from what we are looking for. If we allow it, it slowly and steadily creeps into the very essence of life. We begin to look for reasons in every area of life we go through. We look for logic. When we don’t find it we trash the subject in question as “baseless” and “loose”.

Last week, at Elevate, I got to watch a video of the How Great is Our God Tour by Louie Giglio. He spoke about how awesome, magnificient and HUGE our God is. I will dilute the entire message if I try to condense it into this post. Check out the video on youtube. I think its in 15 parts. Or better yet, try and get ur hands on it somehow. The realisation of how GREAT this BIG God of mine is has brought about a complete change in the way I look at things. Not only does it make me feel small, but there comes this feeling of security despite the feeling of insignificance. I am little with the universe as the point of reference. Yes! But this BIG God who created this universe we are talking about, loves me. WOW!

But now coming back to the subject of this post. Why?? What could be the reason behind this love.

I have 2 choices before me. Either I begin to speculate this love and look for a rock solid justification(logical reason) or I simply accept it and spare myself the effort of stretching my imagination beyond its capacity. I choose the latter(after innumerous unsuccessful attempts at the former). I dont understand it. But I believe it. I know it. I have felt it.

That doesn’t mean that the awe and wonder is any lesser. I still wonder just as the psalmist did….

“Who is man that You are mindful of him” Psalms 8:4

I have been reading(trying to understand) Ecclesiastes for over a month now. Not entirely because it is difficult. I have not been as regular as I would like to be. Through all the finicky cynicism, I decided I need to read something else for a while. So I moved on to Psalms. And here I am finding myself lost in this amazing book. It brought about such a pleasant change at just the right time. It was like after being subject to a claustrophobic room for a long time and being let free into this beautiful open garden. I have nothing against Solomon. I have even started liking Ecclesiastes through this past month. But it just got me thinking. King David would make an amazing blogger, whose blog I would definitely be subscribing to. A blog so passionate, so personal, so honest, so intimate, so beautiful and so real, so much of variety. Makes me long to reach that point. I want that. Not as a blog. But my life.