This has been the longest I have ever taken to update. I was inspired by my roommate to start. I really hope I manage to make it regular.

Whats been happening with me? Lots actually. I have been moved to a new project last month. Now am trying to learn struts and EJB. I even have assignments!! College life revisited…. I know!

I am planning to write the SCJP exam the coming month. So preparation in on. This is the first time I am seriously sticking to it. (Please Lord, I need help!)

Though initially I was very upset about the shift, am so glad it happened.

Apart from that have made new friends. Ann being one and my new roommate. Never thought would get along with her as we are now.

Among the updates – my PG owner increased the rent. Came as a shocker. Now trying to look for a house to move into…. again! Church has helped me grow so much. Would really love to help out in any way possible. But not sure how to go about it. I went to hyderabad recently. Daddy’s transfer is still fluid.

I am really not sure what I should do about the job. Whether this is what I am called to do. Or is there something better out there. Sometimes its so frustrating I feel like packing up and going home… for good!

But I know there there is a plan. And wanna stick to it.

Love with the weather to be precise. Its unbelievably awesome! This is the kinda climate I would love to be in ALL my life. Keeps me in the best of my spirits and brings out the best in me(or so I think and tell myself)

The temperature has been around 15-20 degrees for the past week or so. The air seems so fresh. Its just right. Not unbearable, not just “pleasant”, not requiring layers of woollens, not the “not able to get out of bed” kind, its perfect. Moisturisers, hot coffee, shawls, sun at noon, blankets, sleeping in on weekends, flushed cheeks, freshness, mist, dew, everything. Feels just right!

p.s. I know u hate me angel.

So bangalore it is then! But it turns out, since there are no projects at hand(mainframes), we will be doing testing! TESTING! They call it “Qualtiy and Analysis/Validation”! I just hope and pray that I begin to like what I will do doing. Thats the only way I can survive a year. Anyway, am just glad there is no uncertainity regarding this.

So as it happens, I am not gonna be going to Hyd, atleast as of now. Should know whats in store for me by tomorrow. Will be a little more peaceful then

Been over a month since i moved to bangalore. have begun to like this place, except for work. Found a good church here. Yet to join a regular cell. love the place wher i stay. Except for the size  factor. will put up pics soon. Will be graduating in a coupla weeks.

Got to see vish and the band perform on stage… must admit, dint think they were this good. Awesome. They happened to have gotten offers to open for “parikrama” sometime in july.

Church was awesome. So many new faces, and lots of changes. Foundation class also was good. Will talk bout it in detail later sometime. Have all the time in the world from tomorrow. 

Mahi n anugrah have grown big. Felt nice to meet everyone.

 One common question asked.. “so when are u going back”..  Answer:”… hmmm….. dont really know “

Its been way too long. And I dont even have an excuse. Just plain bored and lazy to update. So latest from me would be, college is over. Project is over. Am now in coimbatore with flav. Leaving the city for good in a coupla days. “Mixed emotions” racing through my head (cant help the cliche’). Blogs all around me seem to be “crying” at the prospect of leaving. The reality has not yet hit me face to face. Better this way aint it?

Have no idea what lies ahead. But the HOPE is what keeps me going. Looking forward to my last few days in vizag. Looking forward to the uncertainity of tomorrow.

This song goes out to jeny, who along with me discovered this song. Our current fav…  

 Could not find a proper video.

I’m down on my knees again tonight
I’m hoping this prayer will turn out right
See there is a boy that needs Your help
I’ve done all that I can do myself
His mother is tired
I’m sure You can understnad
Each night as he sleeps
She goes in to hold his hand
And she tries not to cry
As the tears fill her eyes

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place somehow
See, he’s not just anyone
He’s my son

Sometimes late at night I watch him sleep
I dream of the boy he’d like to be
I try to be strong and see him through
But God who he needs right now is You
Let him grow old
Live life without this fear
What would I be
Living without him here
He’s so tired and he’s scared
Let him know that You’re there

Can You hear me?
Can You see him?
Please don’t leave him
He’s my son

Frankly speaking am not really used to “it” happening. I manage to get my way(almost always) by nagging, whining, cribbing, crying, begging, pleading, scaring, emotionally blackmailing and various other ways as long as it is within my place to do somethin about it(not denying that i have not done it otherwise). Call me childish, immature, self-obsessed, vain but that does not change the fact that I have done it in the past and  I have been doing it without so much as to giving it a second thought. Until recently(may not be your defintion of recent), when due to circumstances and certain experiences, I was made to introspect myself. I could so clearly spot all these areas in my life that totally disgusted me. Am in the process of change like almost every other individual who has had these “experiences” I am talking about.

Past coupla days have brought with them news that I would not exactly call “glad tidings”. My dad is getting posted back to cochin, which happens to be the only place i detest out of all the places i have been to. Why? Not so good memories, not having any friends, the whole “green” atmosphere saps all the happiness outta me. But the main reason I was not open to the idea of moving rather my parents moving, is that I have fallen in love with Vizag. Mostly the church and the people I have gotten to know in the past few years. Am gonna miss them sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. The church has been such an AMAZING source of strength and it was only in vizag that I could see what the bible says bout a church actually exists. I will hold the church really close to my heart wherever I go. Wish things dint have to happen this way. But I know there has to be a purpose for everything that happens. And as long as it is as per His plan, I dont think it is my place to “crib” about it.

And the latest blow, I have to stay back in chennai for an extra 2 weeks as per the wishes of my project manager. I guess its better than having to come back later on. But I had my mind set on spending time in the hostel. This would mean lesser time in the hostel but I guess a better completion.

Man, when God is teaching, He REALLY teaches.

Apart from that, today was one of those mediocre days, did nothin special except get another hair cut. Why again? Its not even been a month? I dunno. I just like being able to touch freshly cut hair. I feel like its my birthright to be able to get my hair cut every once in a month. No one seems to understand that. Besides it also happens to be good for the hair, the ends becoming rough fast n all…. Anyone with doubts/queries bout that, mail me!

And I also spent a good half an hour trying to explain myself to 3 different people at the same reliance web world center. Whats so difficult to understand? I got my connection in coimbatore, its on my friends name. The address proof of which has been submitted not once, but twice. I have been living in chennai for the past 3 months. Things have been fine until lately, I was being harrassed by those computerised phone calls, threatening to barr service unless i submit my address proof.

It so happens that since i am using their “reliable” service in chennai. I need to show them a chhennai address proof, which i tried explaining would be impossible coz i dont live in chennai. The only answer they can come up with is “Sorry maam, those are the rules”… So what am i supposed to do? Live with no outgoing for the rest of the month? Change my phone(coz there’s is no way i will switch to another reliance connection, which would mean i will have to get a new handset)??? I cant even reply to messages!!

Anyway, they said they would “look into” the matter and let me know tomorrow. So let me just hope for the best.

Sorry but i HAD to get it out of my system…